2/24/2008, The New Life Again

I asked someone recently, "after everything you've seen me become, after all the changing...I'm not sure who i am anymore, but thats a good thing. I was made for one thing, or at least i thought i was, made for one thing only...and now that I've discovered I dont want to be that person, who am I? what am i?"

she told me, "you know what you are? your mine...all mine...thats what you are."

I was told that the other night, and i realised something...as i walked towards the door to leave My Baby Angel's house, i was in Heaven, then i opened the door, and saw the world...it truely, did not look real to me, i stood there for a moment, thrown off by this. She noticed, and asked, "you ok?" I replied yes, and told her about what i saw, it didnt look real to me, but looking at her, she looked real...

It was if though the doorway was the way into some other world. but today i realised it wasnt...

we stood outside my house today, talking about just that, and i realised that i could feelt he wind on my face, i could feel the air wisp between us, i could see colors, shapes, people, places!!!! I could see life all around me, I could feel her arms around me, i could feel mine around her...

I realised at that very moment, it wasnt the doorway, it was her...it was all her...

She made the world real to me...the world isnt real without her, its...just not the same...

with her around, its all that much more beautiful...